RE: Summer Solistice

I told you i would update you in a month... so this is me updating and in doing so, shedding light to how the Lord has provided for me and has remained faithful (even though i am undeserving of his faithfulness).

The week after my little i-hate-the-world-melt-down a woman who has been like a mentor to me over the past year nourished my soul. Not only did the Lord use her in my life like he usually does to bring me closer to Him but he also provided that Mom that i was so desperately looking for. She just kind of decided that this was the role that she was going to fill in my life and i couldn't be more grateful.

Finances for school... I was rejected for 2 loans. I applied like i normally do through the bank i have all my student loans and i was rejected. lame. then i applied through Sallie Mae because they are like the loan sharks from hell and i was avoiding them like the plague. But i was rejected by them as well. So i was at a loss. Thinking that i was going to have to take time off from school and work to save money to finish it off (i am 1 year away from graduating). Just when i thought i was going to have to quit school my mom said she would take money out of her retirement to pay the difference of what my financial aid wouldn't pay. I had to humbly accept her joyful sacrificial assistance. It's humbling to know that my mom sacrificed her retirement in order to pay for my school. So i'll pay her back  (along with all the banks that i am indebted to due to the copious amounts of student loans i have). But the Lord provided, and He provided through my mom... showing me that she's still my mom and she does everything in her power to take care of me and for THAT i am grateful. For all of her sacrifices and all of the hardships she has endured throughout her lifetime she is good to me and does the best that she can.

So now i'm the luckiest because i have 2 moms. My mother who has provided for me to the best of her ability for 21 years and my substitute mom who has loved me like her own daughter and has shepherd me in the direction of my King.

So this post was mostly for myself. Mostly so i could have yet another record of God's faithfulness and love to His people... to me. But it's also for you :) Because i told you i would update you.